Another Saturday...

Saturdays are always bittersweet for me. Today marks the seventh Saturday since the accident. Of course, I never wished it would have happened to me, but I now realize more than ever that I am not in control of my life. Sara's mother has been such an inspiration to me throughout these last several weeks. Her positive motivating cards help me view this experience in a much different manner. This week I received this poem from her, and the words have taught me so much!

The Life I Planned

Has someone seen the life I planned?
It seems it's been misplaced.
I've looked in every corner;
It's lost without a trace.

I've found one I don't recognize--
Things missing that were dear;
Promises I'd hoped to keep.
And dreams I'd dreamed aren't here.

Faces I had planned to see,
Hands I planned to hold;
Now absent in the pictures;
Not the way I told.

Has someone seen the life I planned?
Did it get thrown away?
God took my hand from searching;
Then I heard Him say--

"Child, your ears have never heard,
Your eyes have never seen,
Eternal plans I have for you
Are more than you can dream.

You long to walk by sight,
But I'm teaching eyes to see;
I know what I'm doing--
'Till then, you must believe."

He's done so much, I felt ashamed
To know He heard my moans.
To think I'd trade in all He's done
For plans made on my own.

I wept over His faithfulness
And how He'd proved Himself;
How He'd gone beyond my dreams
And said to myself,

"No, my ears have never heard,
My eyes have never seen,
Eternal plans You have for me
Are more than I could dream

Yes, I long to walk by sight
But You're teaching eyes to see;
You know what You're doing--
'Till then, I must believe."

I felt His great compassion--
Mercy unrestrained.
He left me mourn my losses
And showed to me my gains.

I offered Him my future
And released to Him my past.
I traded my dreams
For a plan He said would last.

I get no glimpse ahead;
No certainties at all,
Except the presence of the One
Who will not let me fall.

Are you also searching
For a life you planned yourself?
Have you looked in every corner?
Have you checked on every shelf?

Child, your ears have never heard,
Your eyes have never seen,
Eternal plans He has for you
Are more than you could dream.

Perhaps you long to walk by sight,
But He's teaching eyes to see;
He knows what He is doing--
Child, step out and believe!

Every single day God blesses my life!!! Just within this past week, I am WALKING again just with God's powerful hands leading me. I can walk without the use of a walker or cane. And for anyone who has been by my side throughout this journey, you know that was my ULTIMATE
goal! The simple task of walking to a thirty year old person who had walked most of her life, was definitely a blessing I had taken for granted! God was also my co-pilot this week as I ventured behind the wheel of our new vehicle for the first time. Driving again comfortably is definitely something that is going to take a long time. So, for now I will stick to the safer streets of our neighborhood.

Words could never express how much all of the support and prayers I receive daily continue to mean to me!!!! I know and accept fully that I still have a long road ahead of me!!!! But, I also know that God is faithful and will continue to guide me!!!!!!